Sick & Tired
In AA there is a saying "sick and tired of being sick and tired". That's where I am. I am so sick and tired of being sick and tired. Over the past few years I have just let myself go. Not of being sober. I have no desire to drink - or should I say no desire to have to stop drinking. I have let go of taking care of my body. I used to love working out, running, keeping in shape, eating healthy, sweating, feeling the heat beat on my shoulders as I ran in the afternoon sun. Somewhere between hot flashes, turning 50 and settling into a happy marriage I inched away from my running shoes and got comfy on the family room couch. Now my scale screams a 30 pound overage and I'm feeling overwhelmed at the idea of trying to lose just even 5 pounds! I have a false start every morning - and by noon my lazy mind is telling me it's okay to be middle aged and overweight. So, after my lunchtime nap this afternoon, I am going to start ...